{236/366 | Texx} Sad Sleep

Today I got a nap and usually I’d be over the moon about it, but not today. While I slept my amazing husband fed the babes dinner.  It  was a long day of high maintenance, high energy kids– but most of all,  just missing my brother. So, at 4:30pm I sat on my bed and literally passed out. I had an 1 and a half of sad sleep. For anyone who’s lost, really lost someone who means so very much to them you can relate. Sad sleep, there’s no true rest from it; only that being awake, being present simply isn’t possible anymore.

Eight years ago tonight Rafael got the call. The organs were in, and our (his) long, long, long wait was finally over. He didn’t make it through the surgery and I can’t even explain to anyone how very much I miss him.

I took this pic tonight as my family played in the pool and the sun set behind the glorious oaks & the puffy tall grass. These are Raf’s Rules for Living. He was a special person indeed.

here’s the pic from my crappy android camera…But still like the pic.